Sometimes the people with the hardest lives
Are the strongest ones one you know.
their strength while in pain
makes you want to cry
no words can express
every feeling inside
mixed together
in order to be viewed
those without pain will never understand
only sympathize
they try to convey hope
in their apologies
everyone does everything differently
each emotion a rainbow
trapped within
through the pain and suffuring
in every frustrated tear
find strength
A Poet Never Sleeps
One day you will be faced with the impossible. When you become afraid, become inspired.
29 December 2012
26 December 2012
Just A Little Twisted
Most so easy to read
practice made me perfect
old and young,
in all relations
yet these two
one older
one younger
each related to the other
at times I think they flirt
others not so much
feelings mixed
and I lost
each close as family
no desire in my part
each pertaining to other girls
and still they flirt
practice made me perfect
old and young,
in all relations
yet these two
one older
one younger
each related to the other
at times I think they flirt
others not so much
feelings mixed
and I lost
each close as family
no desire in my part
each pertaining to other girls
and still they flirt
The Will Always Call
Walking through the mall
Mom and brother in tow
Crazy aunts behind me
Wrapped in leather
and ill fitting jeans
yet still they flirt
then my mother
bless her heart
comments on it all
its reassuring just to know
that no matter wearing what
or with who
Mom and brother in tow
Crazy aunts behind me
Wrapped in leather
and ill fitting jeans
yet still they flirt
then my mother
bless her heart
comments on it all
its reassuring just to know
that no matter wearing what
or with who
21 December 2012
Abby Christmas 2012
Two steps forward
One step back
Always by my side
Whether rainy ABBA concerts
Or waist deep in mud
Every moment an adventure
Thanks for the year
And here’s to the next
May fortune be in our favor
In retrospect
Living without regrets
I smile
Happy to be a wing girl
Or dance the night away
All for my best friend
And although the frame is filled
Our story isn’t over
05 December 2012
Start Again
I’ve lost the ability to breath
Pain smothers me from within
Sorrow pushes me around
But with your support
And my inner strength
I will dance again
For now I may trip and stumble
Falling to my knees
And yet I try
Take each breath anew
Every tear washed away
I return to my place
Take A Breath
So many things happen
Without you knowing
And you cannot react
But when cool truth blows in
And reveals the light
Then healing begins
Treat every thought with caution
The weight they hold unknown
Helpful or hurtful
To everyone I’ve touched
This I write to you
As my apology
From here and now I change
To be a better me
Without pain or sorrow
May I pull you up
Instead of pushing down
Change the situation
My presents
I wish
Bring a smile to your face
Although eager to fill your shoes
I step into the shadows
And quickly bow my head
In a circular motion
Telling all
I write
From Thirteen and My Birth
Black fog
Settles down
Hiding the truth
Tears that stained my cheeks
Now fall in your sight
Every word a dagger
I wish to break free
And start again
As my own
My age inhibits me
Paying you my money
Pushing me down
In a timeless age
Maybe these tears
Wouldn’t have to fall
In His Memory
A flash of red
An electric chirp
The slam of a door
Thick hand lotion
The sounds of shower
This blue pen
A radio station
A chrome flame
The right door
Bar Maid
Cherry Vanilla
Flirts from across the room
A toss of the hair
And a twirled skirt
Closed eyes
Speaking without words
Coy smiles
Hiding inner wit
In the corner eye
Golden fate twists
Murmuring softly to herself
Plotting her next cloth
What Do They See
No coquettish airs
Simply kindness
Confidence and sincerity
No great figure
Do I poses
Befitting an Abbey
Exalted wit
without accentuation
a silent savant
climbing into my tower
under own lock and key
I seal my hear away
I fear fro my companions
Sure I’d lose them
I could hold
Times brings in life
Yet no room for dust
Sill it settles thick
Courting Snakes
Time flashes by
A constant history
Those who eat dust
Crawl towards me
In crystalled light
Shines around me
And as it dims
I fight the shadows
No decision
Comes without consequences
All unrequited loves
End in broken hearts
Why is it
That as the dust falls in
And I struggle to breath
Now they approach
A Flower Wanted
A baker’s dozen
Fight for a single rose
Yellow spiked with pink
Down the same trail
They ride
Unaware of each other
Even one at a time
Threatens to crush the bloom
In their endless hunt
This bloom still a bud
Her beauty not reveled
Undesired to flourish
With age and knowledge
The bloom peaks
All in her own time
18 November 2012
Salted Carmel
Toadied words
Become sincere
Over time passed
Filled to the brim
A factices of noise
All for show
So much thanks
To just a few
Covered in shinning film
Ready to unwrap
17 November 2012
Given to You
Does the act of
Thinking about something
Make it happen?
Is the spoken word
Power enough
To get things done?
In my dreams
They give to me
What my future holds
In every word I say
A new story begins
With I in control
Confidence
In every key
Drives me forward
As I say
And as I do
My advice
16 November 2012
Water Mark
Have you ever woken up
And had to wash
The tears off your face
Discovering how you slept
They say your dreams
Reveal who you are
but how about when
You do not dream?
The pain is slowing crushing me inside
And taking away my dreams
Leaving to fight
For everything I love
Trapped in this home
Cold creeping in
Surrounding me in its embrace
I dare not breath
So many suitors
Chase for my heart
How do I turn away
With simple grace
I must stand strong
And forge ahead
Move away from this
From me
Everything seems so shallow
And meaningless
Why do we try to appease
Everyone above par
Here and now I grow
For tomorrow
I can’t leave
Before I know
10 November 2012
Miss Anony
No one knows who I am
Or where I’m from
And I like it like this
I’m never remembered
But always there
Giving you a hand
I might not change the world
But make it a better place
Without you knowing
I like you I am
Not invisible
But not seen
04 November 2012
My Best Friend’s Beau
Her happiness
Is all that matters
And this what you gave her
How can I hate you
When you make her smile
This is my question
Seeing you, I realize
That we think alike
Just in different ways
We many not have a lot in common
Except for her
And that’s all we need
To be neutral
Piano Poetry
Great music
Of those before
Plays my soul
Every up and down
A perfect concerto
Out for the world to hear
I listen to modern
Because it blocks the pain
That the classics reveal
But I don’t care
Because I don’t want to fight
Just listen
Because life without music
Would be flat
Yes. No. Maybe?
I’ve always been alone
But never lonely
More alone now than ever before
I’ve lost the will to smile
But it will return
All in due time
Tears choke down
What I want to say
But I feel safe
Around you
I pretend
But I don’t have to
Peter Piper
There’s so many words
That have gone unsaid
Unable to fill the silence
I’m not angry
Never have been
Just lost
Although I stop speaking
I never stop caring
Instead I’m consumed in thought
Patience
Time
Is all I ask
2am
a shoulder to cry on
a good laugh
would bail you out of jail
if you weren’t there next to me
through thick and thin they stay
you give into sleep
just a phone call away
but what if I couldn’t
pick up the phone
Fear
A foreign phenomena
No fiends from afar
Nor mares in the night
Not situation
Of hand or heart
Shall make me stand and shake
Like a tear
It has no purpose
Only to draw attention
Aware of certain sights
I stand to fight
This thing called
27 October 2012
Improv
Its funny
When you feel awful
Wanting to give up
And just scream
Then you see the person you like
And it goes away
Life is good
You didn’t expect to see them
Yet there they were
And you smiled
Right there next to me
Not sure if you knew
But you made my night
So many laughs we shared
You leaned over and whisperd in my ear
A suprise
26 October 2012
Derive For X
Speaking without words
In facial expressions
And gestures
A smirk, a glance
What do they mean?
I think I know
We don’t have mutual friends
So how could you know
Are you sincere
This is my dream
Your next move
Towards me
EWOH
Who I am
Is unimportant
I go by all
My name is infinite
My face a mystery
My heart regardless
A perfect reputation
Known to everyone
I control my fate
Blue Box
Independently free
Over those hanging on
I fly alone
I walk with my shadows
Ultimate compassion to all
Never staying
My only weakness
Imperfection
And a child’s cry
A constant presence
Admired and feared
Caesar
Bright, attentive, alert
A shoulder to cry on
For you will
Modest , demure, quiet
Let you shine
Your moment came
I’ll stand on the side
And hold you up
With out me
Smirk
Embedded in sorrow
A perpetual foul mood
Letting time slip away
I must shake this off
And carry on
Laughter in the breeze
Amoretti dance
Flit around my heart
With them I let go
No anger or pain
Light as first
Above
Don’t cry because its over
Smile because it happened
Discreet
Walk away
Choose someone else
Carry on
Without your knowledge
If you notice
Will you care?
I’d like to hope you do
But how do I know?
I wish you knew
How your actions
Effect another
Me
25 October 2012
Soft snow flutters down
Kisses from coquettish winter
Wrapped in the embrace
Of gentle cold
Spun sugar settled
Sweetening our hardship
Telling of the pleasures and pain
To come
Many happy memories
Tainted by sorrow
Time speeding by
Mine. Yours. Ours.
Two fighting for one
Not against each other
But for her
Same side
Same goal
Different reasons
He for her love
Affection
Heart
I for our friendship
Memories
Time
A part we may fall
Together we win
24 October 2012
Checkmate My Dear
This game
Dancing across the board
So black and white
You made your move first
And seem to always win
And I except
In a room full of numbers
Thoughts
We play alone
A battle of the wits
My years stand against me
In your favor
Little complements
You toss across the field
When I catch you off guard
So make your move
Take me as your queen
You my knight in armor
Till the end of time
Never stopping
Cavalier
The door opens,
My heart jumps
Thinking you are home
But you’re not
You’re never coming home
You left me
Here with these people
This constant pain
You were my only hope
I have to stand strong now
And protect what you left
From the pain that’s fallen
You could always save me
Make me smile
Now you’re gone
Why should I stay
Surrounded by this
When I could run
To my new life
A better future
Without you is this
23 October 2012
Good Bye Version #3 Petrarchan
To my bright summer rose I sing
My life I would give to you, love
You came into my life from above
Thank you for the many joys you bring
This is where I stand, for you begging
My heart soars on wings of dove
Your beauty mirrored by foxglove
My sonnet set to the winds’ soft cooing
I might not seem a simple dope
I have lost the desire to try
But sadly your love has gone astray
Although our moments fade I hope
My only wish to say goodbye
To never scare your heart away
Good Bye Version #1 Shakespeare
To my bright summer rose I sing
My life I would give to you, love
Thank you for the many joys you bring
You came into my life from above
Although our moments fade I hope
To never scare your heart way
Sorrow set deep I dare to mope
But sadly your love has gone astray
And try I may I fight
For the chance to proclaim my soul
I lose you to the morning light
This may be daft our customs ole
I have lost the desire to try
My only wish to say goodbye
Good Bye Version #2 Spenser
To my bright summer rose I sing
My life I would give to you, love
Thank you for the many joys you bring
You came into my life from above
My heart soars on wings of dove
Although our moments fade I hope
Your beauty mirrored by foxglove
Sorrow set deep I dare to mope
I might not seem a simple dope
To never scare your heart away
Our fate has gone, fallen down a slope,
But sadly your love has gone astray
I have lost the desire to try
My only wish to say goodbye
21 October 2012
Bittersweet
Hello Beautiful
This follows me
My outer-shell
I wish you would stop
Labeling me with
What was given to me
I value most
My mind over matter
Who I am
I relies this
That I should accept
Each one with a smile
But it burns so deep
So painful
That I want to cry
I have to be strong
I have no other choice
But it doesn’t stop the want
How can I say this
It would hurt the other
And make me a narcissist
I don’t want the attention
No I crave less
Not invisible
Explaination
History repeats itself
This has been proven
In my life
I’ve lost all my best friends
I’m losing you
Did I ever have you?
I’ve developed an attitude
“ it doesn’t matter”
but that’s a lie
I does matter
And I’m scared
And worried
I don’t expect anything from this
You reading now
This
I don’t want a conversation
Confrontation
Just a new perspective
Wanted by Nine
So much attention
That I don’t understand
Does my past affect this?
Attention that I understand
But don’t want
Neither can I rid
Where do I place
My attentions?
Where do I go?
So many
Cast their looks towards me
How many are sincere
At this point in time
Its not what I desire
But what I’ve been given
How will I fend against
Without getting hurt
Or hurting someone?
If only I could confide
Unrestrained
In someone
Without fear
Only unbiased advice
Sadly it does not exist
Have I been wrong
Or is this all for real
Does my old soul
Understand?
Answers
I knew I never had it all
But what little I had
Now I have to share
With him
Maybe if there was someone
In my life
Then I’d have more time
With you
These last weeks have been hard
Learning how to cope
How to be me
Without him
I worry that I’ve lost you too
Will you ever know
What you mean
To me?
For reasons I can’t explain
You mean the world
A sister’s love
For my best friend.
18 October 2012
Shooting Star
You’re only as strong
As the one you love
You can only fight
For what you have
Give more than you take
And one day you’ll find
That your dreams came true
It happens in odd ways
Never how you expected
Little victories
Bow Tie
No applause
For something you love
No work, joy
Pain free, passion
Each breath a gift
Life a stage
Pages to write on
Lips to kiss
What will your story
Say about you?
Melocoton
Amor
No Me Gustaria
De hombre
Que dijo
Que pienso
No importa
Es loca
Cuando me enamore
Mi vida
No quiere salir
Tener
En la manana
Me rÃo
Disillusionment
Eyes bright as stars
The world a playground
Endless love, laughter,
Never lying
Couldn’t if they wanted to
Not wanting too
Grasping on to memories
Older times
Newer life
To a child
The world never
Aquarius
First swimming in words
Then feeding the hungry
Blink
Directing notes
Chasing stars
Flash
Running forward
Never enough time
Juggle
Jump, cook, clean
Organized chaos
Whatumacallit, Thingamajig, Chimychanga
Two faces
One name
One face
Many names
I go by all
Responding obediently
I have no name
No connection
I play many parts
A hot for each
Everyone knows me
But no one knows
Dancing to no music
My own drum
Shakespeare’s Shadow
Many great voices
Sang where I stand
Will I measure up
A thousand poets wrote before
And still I compose
Will I be remembered
I must draw upon the past
Singing along, changing lines
Taller I become
Written in ink
Blood
A Choice
Conscious, love
Heavy the are
Unstoppable, unavoidable
Without them
Emptiness fills in
And takes over
One cannot stand alone
But together they rise
To crush evil and despair
And form new growth
From the ashes of old
They flourish
Lies
I must stand for what I believe
Against all odds
For what is right
Nothing crosses my path
Than I cannot fight
I am strong
Although I kill with kindness
And heal with guilt
I am not malignant
Or benevolent
Like an angel of love
In the dark
Another Day
Disregarded, thrown out
Standing to the side
Simply moving through the notes
I gave up
On fighting for you
For us
As you walk away
I cry for your return
Silence follows
Alone
Falling Up
Many things shape a person
Affect them
Meeting you changed who I am
For better or worse
You came to me
And turned my world around
Each activity I join
I become more me
And lose myself
You’ve let me slip away
Even shoved me down
Cheshire Cat
I’ve been called a million names
None of them my own
I’m admired by many
But for the wrong reasons
Behind my eyes
I must stand strong
To hold up against the world
Of misconceptions
In the end
Who am I?12 October 2012
Pit Stop
Black Birds
Dipped in blue
Dance among the branches
A sparkling fire
Here they play
Just beyond the pane
Away they fly
Back to the nest
To the warmth
To return again
Classy Men
Wrapped in black
Hung in a prism
Hair tripped back
Smelling of musk
And tonally fit
Perfect, a pure paradigm
Dressed in silence
Voice like an angel
We dance
Yearbook
Whose here now
Who will be there for you?
Who is never coming back?
Looking into the past
Cramming for now
Preparing for the future
A window opens
When some who you thought
Was a “just-for-now”
Turns out to be more
When all of this is over
It will be all we have
Thief
Fall had barely dropped
A sun about to set
When frozen snow crept in
Dusting everyone in ice
Still gold teardrops fall
Encrusted in diamonds
A thick blanket over all
Not taking its turn
Disguised in rain
Unannounced
Coquettish winter
Taking fall’s glory
Early
A New Job
Paying bills
Water plants
Racking leaves
My father’s jobs
Doing dishes
Laundry, feeding fish
Cooking dinner
Now they are mine
Mom retreats
I rise above
Taking over
My family’s keeper
Cold
Brought together
Through a year’s time
Love between seasons
Then when rain comes,
You stood beside me
But now you’ve left
When I need you
You broke
So I came
Instead of falling apart
I saved you
And still you ran
Trying not to lose myself
While losing you
Autumn
Sneaking up behind us
While we look for air
On a midday breeze
A bright icy fire
Dancing into death
A cold sunrise
Illness racing through
Unstoppable
Joy-full
Coming in death
Removed with labor
Buried with joy
Our beautiful mistress
With a chilly glare
Arrives
Miracle
Do you believe?
In messages for the unknown?
Signs for another level
Little things, caught off guard
And arrow in blood,
A single rose
Images beyond the grave
Or in our own backyard
I don’t
But it’s a good story.
Boo
Happy Father's Day
Dear Dad,
Happy father’s day
I love you very much,
For all that you give me.
You’ve taught me so much,
How to ride a bike,
And how to tie my shoes.
When I grow up,
I want to be like you,
Caring, loving, giving,
Smart and brave.
We have so much in common,
Music, movies, books,
Our inside jokes,
And catch phrases.
I love watching repeat movies with you,
And eating candy bars,
Reading more and more.
You support me in all I do,
And encourage me to do new things,
You’re always there for me.
Thanks for all you do,
You grill and fix the house,
You cook and clean it all,
Making coffee in the morning.
I love you very much,
Happy father’s day,
I’m proud,
To be daddy’s little girl.
10 October 2012
Smile
It keeps you young
And ages you
Showing in the eyes
Fake or real
It does not matter
They always mean the same
A simple beauty in those sincere
Bitter distance in the fake
Shining pearls
Invisible
Unseen
Standing in the shadows
Here I live
Although I scream out
No one hears
My silent pleases
If I sit here
All alone
Will I disappear?
Archaic
Hello You Here Me?
What is wrong?
Nothing.
I call shenanigans.
It is hard to miss such beauty
Fallen on the ground
Withering in despair
Here I sit
Rejected by the ones I
hold dear
An sung victory
Alone in peace
Without rest
In this endless dance
I sing
Not in the Plan
Today I danced in the rain
And met the guy of my dreams
But I’m just kidding
It didn’t happen that way
It didn’t rain
It poured
I found Mr. Right
But he was just a prank
I was stabbed in the back by a friend
And had my heart ripped out
I was left there to die
As my future walked away
But I refused to give up
And let life pass
Instead I'll wait for the rain to stop
And the joke to end
But I refused to give up
And let life pass
Instead I'll wait for the rain to stop
And the joke to end
27 September 2012
Presents From Daddy
Little things
Coming in the mail
A new speaker
A single screw
Packages piled high
Evidence of your life
Filled with the things you love
Packed for the one you love
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