Still You Won't Choose Me

Two girls stand before you

One who loves you

And one who never will

You walk away with her

I let you go

I want you to be happy

 

You say you don’t love him

Yet you string him along

Why won’t you release him

To someone who cares

Yet you selfishly cling to your unwanted prize

 

My heart breaks

As you flirt with him

My heart breaks

As you try to crush him underfoot

 

Even as you go through this pain

For surely you see it happening

For Now and Forever

The giving tree

Gave her all

To those she loved

Let me be your giving tree

 

Every heartbeat, breathe and tear

All my waking moments

Consumer my very thoughts

I give to you all I am

 

The hanging tree

Where lovers go to die

My only crime was loving you

You were my hanging tree

 

I stretch my branches out to you

As I feel my leaves wither and fall

Yet I still love you

 

What is it about you?

God I hate you

I’m so ready to cut the cord

Slam the door

And walk away

 

And there it is

Out of the blue

Out of the silence

A simple hello

 

One little word

Sends my world spinning again

How easily I fell

Why is it always you

 

I’d be yours in a heartbeat

If only you’d ask

Yet I stand at arms lenght

Last Only a Moment

Can you miss something

You never had

Morn a future lost

 

I was so sure

Until the next heartbeat fell

Without me noticing

 

It’s funny how your mind works

It can trick you into believing anything

Even if it’s a lie

 

Maybe it’s better that way

The life unlived

For its forever, perfect

 

The few memories I have

Fill an eternity

And the ever present silence

I Do

I promise

To never get close to anyone

I promise

To never fall in love

I promise

To never start a family

I promise to never make her mistakes

 

I promise

To never stop loving the world

I promise

To never stop serving

I promise

I never close my heart to forgiveness

I promise to never forget my past, nor let it define me

Thanks for Reminding Me

 I thought I was alone

But then I noticed you

You were always there

You showed me an affection and intimacy

To which I was unfamiliar

I began to trust you, to fall in love

 

You pulled me out into the light

From my comfortable darkness

I started to think about tomorrow. Our tomorrow

All signs pointed to it

I was so…blinded…. By hope that I didn’t care

That we could never be

 

It ended before you were mine

Yet still I felt it all break again

I remember why I close myself off

Why my heart stays cold