She is My Best Friend.

Cold, snarky, compassionless

Take-and-choose  

Given by Machiavelli

Without an end in sight

 

A goal to score every guy

Regardless if they’re taken

Her only parameter?

If they catch her eye

 

Her prescription glasses rose

The world handed to her on a platter

The moment this changes

She screams at all to get her way

 

She changes through the days

During school the person foretold

On the weekends and breaks

When she’s all alone

But Will It Be Enough?

I made excuses

“ I changed

She was over stressed”

 

But now I see

A pattern emerges

And so I’ve explained

Yet dare not say

 

A compromise forms

I won’t abandon her

Nor will I be her kickstand

 

If it’s possible then I’ll try

Do this I promise

And give my all  

But Conceptually

I didn’t think it was possible

But it is

Admitting something was wrong

Fixed it  

 

Carefully over time

I’ve healed

Saw light in a new way

And I like it

 

Regain friendship

Find myself

Turn a new leaf

And fight harder

 

I was surprised

In under a year

A rebirth

Not spiritually

Instead of Back

It's not love

Barely a glimmer of hope

Yet a few subtle clues

Have given me a new outlook

 

Nothing is going to happen

But it's nice not to think

About him

Instead someone else to smile

 

Two friends have feelings

So I won’t act

No that would be wrong

But I will forget

 

It’s a little something

A reason to smile to myself

And look forward

 

 

Little Brother

All alone

In this world

With no one who understands

Or so I thought

 

No he isn’t perfect

The pressure he fells unalike my own

But our situations are similar

Something I had forgotten

 

Although I’m older

And forced to hold his weight

He understands

And looks to me for guidance

 

An honest conversation later

And I feel better

I hope he does too.

Keep Climbing

Up upon a pedestal

Glancing down

Many looking up

Glaring, confused

 

The pressure for perfection crushes

Growing as you climb

With farther to fall

But more to earn

 

It’s harder to ask for help

Or admit you’re falling

Judgment comes with this

Augmenting the pressure

 

This is the road you choose

So keep climbing  

Yoyo Kickstand

All alone

Forsaken by all

No one cares about you

 

This is when you run to me

 

Spotlight on you

Everyone around

A glance in your direction

 

And you forget again

 

This happens year after year

Month to month

All in a cycle

 

No middle ground

 

Either I’m all in all

Or none at all

No middle ground

 

And I hate it.