A Poet Never Sleeps

One day you will be faced with the impossible. When you become afraid, become inspired.

31 October 2013

My Final Interaction


An error I’d like to bring to light

Is one of the greatest sorrows

To have a laps of morals

Unforgivable

 

To wantonly court a taken man

And threaten to leave education

Become a thieving scallywag

For this I am disgusted

 

In the face of laws and ethics you laugh

Blatantly disregard other’s rights

How can I continue a relationship with

You for whom I have no respect

 

 

 

A Murky Mind


List to words written

Illuminate the knowledge you desire

Or do you?

Do you desire to know?

 

Shrouded in blissful ignorance

With you face to the sun

Stepping over the shattered bones

Of the fallen thoughts

 

A smile and a laugh

You write off all as well

Yet the ugly truth who rears his head

Is that the very bridge you cling to, has broken

 

Now walking on crimson clouds

Soon to fall into raging waters

Where the allies which you left for

Will never support you through the thick

 

But not how you expected it


Today was a gray day

Weather wise and in health

Yet I am warm

 

Nothing of interest to report

A spark thrown into the dampness

And that’s ok

 

To get through this weekend

My goal to achieve

Then I come clean

 

I’m ready to cut the cord

Stop going through the muse

Which is insane

 

This is what you wanted me to do

 

 

29 October 2013

Free from you


The last string that would tie us together

Cut

This is where our story ends

 

In time this will be evident

And a new voice will fill my head

But enough is enough

 

I love you

Never forget this

Goodbye my dear

 

No more forced smiles

Or putting up a pretense

Finally I am free

 

 

 

Object of Envy


The ex love

Turned green with the thought

Of me with another

 

Then the guy who loves me

Who is loved by another

He must see this

 

Another time this happens

Although her victory I don’t care

For he is already taken

 

My genes have been blessed

And this too is regarded

By those with whom I am dear

 

A little bliss

A dash of regret

A delicious blend of life

 

Every guy wants me

Every girl wants to be me

Interworkings of a mind


Life is about walking the line

Between sanity and insanity

Too sane and you forget who you are

Not sane enough and you lose touch with reality

 

You must look into the future

Learn from the past

And live in the now

Or you will fail

 

Distinguish pain from anger

Love from lust

It’s not about falling down

But standing up again

 

Unique thought process

And a dream for tomorrow

 

16 October 2013

And You Need to Read


Words not meant to harm

Simply to express

What reactions come from them?

Fall to your discretion

 

Few complaints I will detail

A lie over something trivial

A dig direct towards me

Both to my face you sent them

 

And all though you are aware

You seemingly refuse to read these

Your understanding sets me free

While your ignorance causes me harm

 

No easy way to say this

For this might bring you pain

But I love you

So soon approaching


Fair weather friends I have plenty

No it’s the one I need

Who can see the inner storm

 

Both happen at once

And both are needed

In perfect balance

 

But now the balance has shifted

Plenty sunshine sailors

Yet none to weather the waves

 

A captain without her sailors

Only those green

A ship soon to crash

 

Grab fast the wheel

And look for the eye

 

 

When the day is gray: but some are easier than others



 

You write and drink hot chocolate

Wear long sleeve tees

And watch Disney films

 

Some days are gray in a different way

Where the sun shines

Yet the inner storm rages

 

Out in the streets

With wet cheeks

Although the sky is clear

 

Your shadow walks beside thee

Your only companion

Both days knock you down

 

08 October 2013

When tomorrow comes.


Living for tomorrow

Not the future

But the next sun rise

 

Even the weekend freedoms repeat

Is this circle necessary?

To reach a better tomorrow

 

Climbing and learning

Over and over again

Just a little, mostly the same

 

The things that give me joy

Fall cyclical

A flat life line

 

How to change things up

When tomorrow comes.  

Just a quite disobedience


Will keep up an act

To make the day to day bearable

With the last poem

I said goodbye

 

I haven’t told you this

The poem the only proof

Maybe you’ll never know

But it’s important to me

 

Free from this weight

My displeasure sorted

No guilt in my disgust

Although it will not be known

 

By my own choice

Kept from you per say

Not a secret in reality

 

  

The Gentle Dying of Life Past


A poem written this time last year
Told of our joys and trials overcome
Now I write to say goodbye for the last time
 
Once spoke of future goals and past gatherings
Now silence fills the void
I prepare for the inevitable
 
I will always love you
So this end is bittersweet
Both choices make me mournful and rejoiced
 
Goodbye my dear
They say two hears come together and fall apart
For the greater good
 
It breaks my heart to leave
And I will be lonely once more
But I don’t regret it
 
We can scream and make up
For six months of bliss
And start this again
 
Or we can end this now
Remaining courteous strangers
With a shared past
 
Yes people will reference this
And it will sting
But I’ll remember

03 October 2013

Is My Greatest Challenge



Cats in the cradle

And the silver spoon

A child growing without her father

Going to be just like here dad

 

Once representing childhood fear

Now sums up my reality

Not perfectly, just a concept

Little girl grey

 

You will never see my leave

Or walk me down the aisle

My children you’ll never meet

Nor grow old with pride

 

I promised to take care of you

But I couldn’t do it here

I’ll carry your legacy

My sincere apologies

 

Not trying to let you down

Autumn


 

Leaving dripping in the fog

Their colors beginning to change

Although the sky dapple grey

Grass grows an emerald gem

 

The air cool and sharp

Nature’s sound track muted

Only the gentle pitter patter sounds

The streets turned mirroresk

 

Chilled to the bone

I feel in tune, healthy

A spot of warm tea

Brings me back to life

 

Now is my favorite season

Immaculate weather

My ideal clothing

And great flavors

Fear of the Unknown


 

You could have asked me

What are your afraid of?

And I’d laugh at you

Fearless I’d say

 

But now I’m not so sure

I found something I’m terrified of

I’ve lost who I am

And this makes me cry

 

I’ve always been Kaitlyn,

Strong, passionate, kind

I had a path and future

A perfect role model

 

But now who am I?

What do I do?

Where am I going?