And I lose my reason to cry

Love, Anger, Hate,

These I can feel

With these I can processe

 

But this silence

As if everything as stopped

What do I do with it

 

It washes over me

And reduces me to tears

You caused it

 

Everything that made me

Is now gone

You were the first to leave

 

Now nothing is left

But the silence

So cold and empty

 

Now I search for something

To fill the void

And it works

 

Movies and book

A few candles

And something sweet

 

A good friend

A quite night

 

 

A Boy and A Girl

She never meant to cause him pain

He never meant to fall in love

For her it was a summer fling

For him the chance of a life time

 

She was fine with flirting then moving on

He had his heart set on her

All his dreams did she fulfill

He couldn’t save any of hers

 

She never set goals for the future

While he planned theirs out forever

When she took flight she gave no thought

 Yet it killed him in a breath

 

Now he’s been with a girl or two

Always comparing them to her

They never understand

Why they couldn’t heal the hurt

 

He crosses her mind from time to time

But she never regrets a word

A tinge of guilt for the pain she caused

But she’s happy none the less

 

He’s still sweet for her

He doesn’t understand

They still talk from time to time

But it isn’t quite the same

 

 

Perhaps one day he’ll stop and think

Of the time they spent apart

And see that he’s grown stronger

Without her in his arms

 

Maybe one day she’ll stop and think

Of the time they spent together

Realize the good that came about

And promise to forget never

Drawn in the Sands of Time

It was cold

I didn’t see the end

Yet I was sure of myself

 

Now it’s over

And starting again

And I’m lost

 

This isn’t in my control

I’m climbing through life

Mildly aware of my strings

 

It pleases you to forgive and forget

Am I to accept this and move on

Or do I resume our conflict

 

Can both happen at once

With new history comes a new line

 

 

Step Back

I had given up

Accepted, embraced the silence

And you turned on a dime

As if the past never happened

 

It’s as if you cut

From the night you told

To this morning

Turning a blind eye

 

Did you see my perspective

Or were you persuaded

Did your heart change

What happened

 

Things won’t be the same

History rewritten

How do I fit in

I'm In Love

He’s perfect in every way

He’s smart and tall and handsome

And always makes me laugh

 

I notice his stolen glances

That lingering smile

And subtle intimacy

 

Even whispers of things benign

Set my heart a flutter

He consumes my thoughts

 

They race from love to love

Bits and pieces I adore

Forming one voice

 

Yet a blank frame stares back at me

His writings not in ink

No quotations can I recite

 

Yet my heart flutters

And Start Anew

So engaged by tradition

I ignored who didn’t fit

Now starting over

The others can fill in

 

She stood by my side from the get go

And is now remarked as the old

I enjoy her presence

But don’t consider her close

 

Yet as I cling to the past

They stepped in

And I love them

For they make me laugh again

 

I’ll embrace these saviors

And perhaps the forlorn love

House of Glass

Sitting on a hill

Slowly filling with smoke

Crowned in dazzling light

 

Before the smoke came

Laughter bounced about

Now silence sings

 

Stones thrown break the panes

Smoke holding up the gem

Till bitter breezes whittle it away

 

The hill sits empty now

Pass visitors glance and the hole

And forget

The thought makes me smile

You are the voice inside my head

A lift of your brow melts my heart

The memory of shared magic

Sparks verbal intercourse in my hands

 

He is my first love

So effortless

Then there is he

A casual flirting star

 

I crave his smile

And our wits interlock

Yet I am inferior

And this fuels my passions

 

The former is cool in person

Yet warmly familiar in private

The later will acknowledge me

Yet makes no motion to move

 

To cling to the past

Hypocritical

To lust for a new reward

Petty and cruel

 

Easier to fall back

The thought makes me smile

An upward climb to the future

 

For a change in heart

Only you can see my soul

Yet be so blind

Finishing my sentences

With no clue as to what they mean

 

You can be so near or far

On something so shallow

Or the bottom of the barrel

But only at times

 

You’ve admitted to moving on

And seen the broken cord

Although you ask

I fail to tell you

 

I can see this all

Yet still I hope

 

Or crushing knowledge?

Things are changing

With the foretold evils

And the subtle good

 

On the surface all is well

I can close my heart and pretend

That everything is normal

 

Underneath its sliding backwards

To where you can see

But don’t care

 

Which is better

Blissful ignorance

 

Will he move on?

Every tale of unrequited love

Calls of two lovers

One cold who shuns the other

One who pines away

 

The former flirts

And reaps rewards

While the latter cries with sorrow

Unable to fulfill his heart’s desire

 

He can waste his life away

His soul crumbling from within

While she basks in the glow

Blissfully aware of the tragedy

 

Yet her heart might grow to love him

Or merely a love for his love

Will this fill his heart

Or when he has what he desires

 

Our final resting place

 

Quite a curious thing

Our endless slumber

That all must endure

For we lie in earthly bosom

In a frozen silence

 

In the passing of a second we fall

Oblivious of all around

Each in our own time

No set pattern in this eve

Yet none shall stay awake

 

Wrapped in raven smoke

Warm and alluring

Some flee from this mistress

While others welcome her embrace

She will come knocking on every door

How she is received defines the master