A Poet Never Sleeps

One day you will be faced with the impossible. When you become afraid, become inspired.

27 October 2012


Its funny

When you feel awful
Wanting to give up
And just scream

Then you see the person you like
And it goes away
Life is good

You didn’t expect to see them
Yet there they were
And you smiled

Right there next to me
Not sure if you knew
But you made my night

So many laughs we shared
You leaned over and whisperd in my ear
A suprise

Thank you

26 October 2012

Derive For X

Speaking without words
In facial expressions
And gestures

A smirk, a glance
What do they mean?
I think I know

We don’t have mutual friends
So how could you know
Are you sincere

This is my dream
Your next move
Towards me


Who I am
Is unimportant
I go by all

My name is infinite
My face a mystery
My heart regardless

A perfect reputation
Known to everyone
I control my fate

Who am I ?

Blue Box

Independently free
Over those hanging on
I fly alone

I walk with my shadows
Ultimate compassion to all
Never staying

My only weakness
And a child’s cry

A constant presence
Admired and feared

The Doctor  


Bright, attentive, alert
A shoulder to cry on
For you will

Modest , demure, quiet
Let you shine
Your moment came

I’ll stand on the side
And hold you up
With out me

Who would you be?


Embedded in sorrow
A perpetual foul mood
Letting time slip away

I must shake this off
And carry on
Laughter in the breeze

Amoretti dance
Flit around my heart
With them I let go

No anger or pain
Light as first

Don’t cry because its over
Smile because it happened


Walk away
Choose someone else
Carry on

Without your knowledge
If you notice
Will you care?

I’d like to hope you do
But how do I know?
I wish you knew

How your actions
Effect another

25 October 2012

Soft snow flutters down
Kisses from coquettish winter
Wrapped in the embrace
Of gentle cold

Spun sugar settled
Sweetening our hardship
Telling of the pleasures and pain
To come

Many happy memories
Tainted by sorrow
Time speeding by  

Mine. Yours. Ours.

Two fighting for one
Not against each other
But for her

Same side
Same goal
Different reasons

He for her love

I for our friendship

A part we may fall
Together we win

Our own

24 October 2012

Checkmate My Dear

This game
Dancing across the board
So black and white

You made your move first
And seem to always win
And I except

In a room full of numbers
We play alone

A battle of the wits
My years stand against me
In your favor

Little complements
You toss across the field  
When I catch you off guard

So make your move
Take me as your queen
You my knight in armor

Till the end of time
Never stopping



The door opens,
My heart jumps
Thinking you are home

But you’re not
You’re never coming home
You left me

Here with these people
This constant pain
You were my only hope

I have to stand strong now
And protect what you left
From the pain that’s fallen

You could always save me
Make me smile
Now you’re gone

Why should I stay
Surrounded by this
When I could run

To my new life
A better future
Without you is this


23 October 2012

Good Bye Version #3 Petrarchan

To my bright summer rose I sing
My life I would give to you, love
You came into my life from above
Thank you for the many joys you bring
This is where I stand, for you begging
My heart soars on wings of dove
Your beauty mirrored by foxglove
My sonnet set to the winds’ soft cooing

I might not seem a simple dope
I have lost the desire to try
But sadly your love has gone astray
Although our moments fade I hope
My only wish to say goodbye
To never scare your heart away

Good Bye Version #1 Shakespeare

To my bright summer rose I sing
My life I would give to you, love
Thank you for the many joys you bring
You came into my life from above

Although our moments fade I hope
To never scare your heart way
Sorrow set deep I dare to mope
But sadly your love has gone astray

And try I may I fight
For the chance to proclaim my soul
I lose you to the morning light
This may be daft our customs ole

I have lost the desire to try
My only wish to say goodbye

Good Bye Version #2 Spenser

To my bright summer rose I sing
My life I would give to you, love
Thank you for the many joys you bring
You came into my life from above

My heart soars on wings of dove
Although our moments fade I hope
Your beauty mirrored by foxglove
Sorrow set deep I dare to mope

I might not seem a simple dope
To never scare your heart away
Our fate has gone, fallen down a slope,
But sadly your love has gone astray

I have lost the desire to try
My only wish to say goodbye

21 October 2012


Hello Beautiful
This follows me
My outer-shell

I wish you would stop
Labeling me with
What was given to me

I value most
My mind over matter
Who I am

I relies this
That I should accept
Each one with a smile

But it burns so deep
So painful
That I want to cry

I have to be strong
I have no other choice
But it doesn’t stop the want

How can I say this
It would hurt the other
And make me a narcissist

I don’t want the attention
No I crave less
Not invisible

But hidden


History repeats itself
This has been proven
In my life

I’ve lost all my best friends
I’m losing you
Did I ever have you?

I’ve developed an attitude
“ it doesn’t matter”
but that’s a lie

I does matter
And I’m scared
And worried

I don’t expect anything from this
You reading now

I don’t want a conversation
Just a new perspective

Wanted by Nine

So much attention
That I don’t understand
Does my past affect this?

Attention that I understand
But don’t want
Neither can I rid

Where do I place
My attentions?
Where do I go?

So many
Cast their looks towards me
How many are sincere

At this point in time
Its not what I desire
But what I’ve been given

How will I fend against
Without  getting hurt
Or hurting someone?

If only I could confide
In someone

Without fear
Only unbiased advice
Sadly it does not exist

Have I been wrong
Or is this all for real
Does my old soul



I knew I never had it all
But what little I had
Now I have to share
With him

Maybe if there was someone
In my life
Then I’d have more time
With you

These last weeks have been hard
Learning how to cope
How to be me
Without him

I worry that I’ve lost you too
Will you ever know
What you mean
To me?

For reasons I can’t explain
You mean the world
A sister’s love
For my best friend.

18 October 2012

Shooting Star

You’re only as strong
As the one you love
You can only fight
For what you have

Give more than you take
And one day you’ll find
That your dreams came true

It happens in odd ways
Never how you expected
Little victories


Bow Tie

No applause
For something you love

No work, joy
Pain free, passion

Each breath a gift
Life a stage

Pages to write on
Lips to kiss

What will your story
Say about you?


No Me Gustaria
De hombre

Que dijo
Que pienso
No importa

Es loca
Cuando me enamore
Mi vida

No quiere salir
En la manana

Me río


Eyes bright as stars
The world a playground
Endless love, laughter,

Never lying
Couldn’t if they wanted to
Not wanting too

Grasping on to memories
Older times
Newer life

To a child
The world never



First swimming in words
Then feeding the hungry

Directing notes
Chasing stars

Running forward
Never enough time

Jump, cook, clean
Organized chaos


Whatumacallit, Thingamajig, Chimychanga

Two faces
One name
One face
Many names

I go by all
Responding obediently
I have no name
No connection

I play many parts
A hot for each
Everyone knows me
But no one knows

Dancing to no music
My own drum

Free, lost

Shakespeare’s Shadow

Many great voices
Sang where I stand
Will I measure up

A thousand poets wrote before
And still I compose
Will I be remembered

I must draw upon the past
Singing along, changing lines
Taller I become

Written in ink

A Choice

Conscious, love
Heavy the are
Unstoppable, unavoidable

Without them
Emptiness fills in
And takes over

One cannot stand alone
But together they rise
To crush evil and despair

And form new growth
From the ashes of old
They flourish


I must stand for what I believe
Against all odds
For what is right

Nothing crosses my path
Than I cannot fight
I am strong

Although I kill with kindness
And heal with guilt
I am not malignant

Or benevolent
Like an angel of love
In the dark

I sing

Another Day

Disregarded, thrown out
Standing to the side

Simply moving through the notes
I gave up

On fighting for you
For us

As you walk away
I cry for your return

Silence follows

Falling Up

Many things shape a person
Affect them
Meeting you changed who I am

For better or worse
You came to me
And turned my world around

Each activity I join
I become more me
And lose myself

You’ve let me slip away
Even shoved me down

Cheshire Cat

I’ve been called a million names
None of them my own

I’m admired by many
But for the wrong reasons

Behind my eyes
I must stand strong

To hold up against the world
Of misconceptions

In the end
Who am I?

12 October 2012

Pit Stop

Black Birds
Dipped in blue

Dance among the branches
A sparkling fire

Here they play
Just beyond the pane

Away they fly
Back to the nest

Down to the South
To the warmth

To return again

Classy Men

Wrapped in black
Hung in a prism
Hair tripped back

Smelling of musk
And tonally fit
Perfect, a pure paradigm

Dressed in silence
Voice like an angel
We dance


Whose here now
Who will be there for you?
Who is never coming back?

Looking into the past
Cramming for now
Preparing for the future

A window opens
When some who you thought
Was a “just-for-now”
Turns out to be more

When all of this is over
It will be all we have  


Fall had barely dropped
A sun about to set
When frozen snow crept in
Dusting everyone in ice

Still gold teardrops fall
Encrusted in diamonds
A thick blanket over all
Not taking its turn

Disguised in rain
Coquettish winter
Taking fall’s glory


A New Job

Paying bills
Water plants
Racking leaves

My father’s jobs

Doing dishes
Laundry, feeding fish
Cooking dinner

Now they are mine

Mom retreats
I rise above
Taking over

My family’s keeper  


Brought together
Through a year’s time
Love between seasons

Then when rain comes,
You stood beside me
But now you’ve left

When I need you
You broke
So I came

Instead of falling apart
I saved you
And still you ran

Trying not to lose myself
While losing you  


Sneaking up behind us
While we look for air
On a midday breeze

A bright icy fire
Dancing into death
A cold sunrise

Illness racing through

Coming in death
Removed with labor
Buried with joy

Our beautiful mistress
With a chilly glare


Do you believe?
In messages for the unknown?

Signs for another level
Little things, caught off guard

And arrow in blood,
A single rose

Images beyond the grave
Or in our own backyard

I don’t
But it’s a good story.


Happy Father's Day

Dear Dad,
Happy father’s day
I love you very much,

 For all that you give me.  
 You’ve taught me so much,
How to ride a bike,
And how to tie my shoes.

When I grow up,
I want to be like you,
Caring, loving, giving,
Smart and brave.

We have so much in common,
Music, movies, books,
Our inside jokes,
And catch phrases.

I love watching repeat movies with you,
And eating candy bars,
Reading more and more.

You support me in all I do,
And encourage me to do new things,
You’re always there for me.

 Thanks for all you do,
 You grill and fix the house,
You cook and clean it all,
Making coffee in the morning.

I love you very much,
Happy father’s day,
I’m proud,
 To be daddy’s little girl.

10 October 2012


It keeps you young
And ages you
Showing in the eyes

Fake or real
 It does not matter
They always mean the same

A simple beauty in those sincere
Bitter distance in the fake
Shining pearls 


Standing in the shadows
Here I live

Although I scream out
No one hears
My silent pleases

If I sit here
All alone
Will I disappear? 


Hello You Here Me?

What is wrong?
I call shenanigans.

It is hard to miss such beauty
Fallen on the ground
Withering in despair

Here I sit
Rejected  by the ones I hold dear
An sung victory

Alone in peace
Without rest
In this endless dance

I sing 

Not in the Plan

Today I danced in the rain
And met the guy of my dreams
But I’m just kidding
It didn’t happen that way

It didn’t rain
It poured
I found Mr. Right
But he was just a prank

I was stabbed in the back by a friend
And had my heart ripped out
I was left there to die
As my future walked away

But I refused to give up
And let life pass
Instead I'll wait for the rain to stop
And the joke to end